Lucas always comes to me at night.  I know I should just resist him and tell him to leave.  But I cannot.  I’m like a drug user.  I can’t go long without that next fix. 

I try to get away.  I try to leave and just say “no” to him.  But I cannot.  Even when he turns to Gail, I still cannot say no.  He wants both of us and I cannot resist.  I let him.  I’m damned.  My soul is his and there is no turning back.